Wednesday, January 18, 2017

Love, Loss, and a new meow

They say memories are golden
well maybe that is true.
I never wanted memories,
I only wanted you.

A million times I needed you,
a million times I cried.
If love alone could have saved you
you never would have died.

In life I loved you dearly,
In death I love you still.
In my heart you hold a place
no one could ever fill.

If tears could build a stairway
and heartache make a lane,
I'd walk the path to heaven
and bring you back again.

Our family chain is broken,
and nothing seems the same.
But as we're called one by one,
the chain will link again.


Our sweet TSK made his journey OTRB  on the afternoon of
December 13, 2016
He had gone in for dental xrays and possible tooth extraction.
I dropped him off at the vet in the morning, after cuddling with him in the car for a bit as we were a little early. I have still not washed the jeans and shirt I was wearing that day.
I received a call from the vet around noon stating that he did have to have 2 teeth pulled and that everything went well, that we could pick him up at 3 that afternoon.
A short time later the vet called again saying they were having trouble waking him up.
That they were agitating him to get him to start waking. That the drugs used on him were the same as he had 18 months prior when he had 7 teeth pulled. They would keep me posted and someone was with him constantly. I offered to go down there to see if I could help wake him, but the offer was declined. The next call from the vet was that they were messing with his ears and it seemed that he was trying to respond. She was encouraged by this. She would keep us posted. Sadly, the last call was a few minutes later. He had arrested, they did CPR, but he didn't respond. He was gone. The vet thinks that he had a heart issue we didn't know about or perhaps threw a clot.
This was the worst day of our lives. We were in shock. How could this have happened?
We went to the vet hospital to say our last goodbyes to our sweet boy. We took Daffy with us so she would know.
Our little family had been torn asunder. Our home was now very sad. For such a little kitty, TSK had a huge presence, always wanting to be involved in everything we were doing. It was him, not Daffy, that met us at the door when we came home. We will love him and miss him forever.

A huge thank you to our friends, family, and neighbors for your sympathy and support.
We have received so many sympathy cards, from all over the world, and special gifts from friends. A tree was even planted in his memory! It helps in our sorrow to know just how loved our sweet TSK was, and is.
So many of you made donations in TSK's memory to the Bend Spay + Neuter Project where I volunteer. The total was a very large amount and we can't thank you enough.


Now I would like to introduce you to Mitzi.
We didn't think we would be ready for another kitty just yet.
But Daffy was missing her playmate. Daffy doesn't know how to play with other dogs, but she would play with TSK. TSK was the only one she played with. She had been napping in the spots TSK would lately.... We knew she was missing her BFF.
So when my friend Vikki, and fellow BSNP volunteer, offered us Mitzi, feral kitten she had socialized, we gave it some thought. 
Mitzi was trapped by Kim, a feral/community cat trapper for BSNP.
She was trapped in LaPine in November while Kim was doing her colony for the COCA day.  She brought in about 20 adults and 8 kittens, some 8ish weeks old and some 6ish weeks old.  But there were two adults she didn't catch. So she took a drop trap back that afternoon to try to catch them.  When she got back, Mitzi was running around. Kim threw down a typical trap, & Mitzi ran right in. (She was about 8 weeks old then) Kim never did catch the other adults.
Kim also socializes feral kittens that have a good chance to be adopted at the local Humane Society shelters. Vikki had been wanting to try her hand at socializing as well. So Mitzi (later named Mitzi by Vikki) went to Vikki's house. Vikki had a large crate set up and over about a month and a half Mitzi went from being a scared wild kitty to a sweet purring kitten that you could now pet and play with. 
Vikki did such a great job with her, I hope she will continue to do more kittens.
When the time came for Vikki to take Mitzi to the shelter she just couldn't do it. She didn't want her to be raised by a stranger... She thought maybe Mitzi could help us not be so sad, that we would be able to give her the loving home she was hoping for her.
So we brought Mitzi home. Crate and all.
She has done surprisingly well! She has become more and more comfortable here in the few days she has been here. She and Daffy are very interested in each other. I think they will end up being great pals. She is using the big litter box and the feeding station we had to create to keep Daffy from the cat food. She is having great fun running through the house, tail held high, exploring her new surroundings. 
It's been quite a while since I had a kitten, she is about 3 months old now, and she is very entertaining. She has brought some smiles to us, has helped with the sadness the 3 of us have. She has the sweetest little girly meow. She was probably born in October, TSKs birthday month as well.
Thank you Kim and Vikki for giving us this sweet girl.
No one will ever replace our beloved TSK, our heart cat, but there is room in our hearts for this precious little kitten.
(the first few pix are from when she was with Vikki)

💗 🐾 🐱


  1. Concatulations! Mitzi's adorable and looks like lots of fun. I hope she'll like to go adventuring with you. That would be pawsome.

  2. Congratulations Mitzi is a beauty and I'm sure will bring much happiness to you both and to Daffy.

  3. Took me a long time to read this. I had to stop every line or so to wipe the tears from my eyes. Tears first of sadness and then tears of happiness. Thank you for sharing TSK's story, Ingrid's poem, and the news about Mitzi.

  4. Congratulations to the whole family! We all hope Mitzi brings joy to your home.

  5. It took me some time to read your message too, Dana. I couldn't see through my tears. Then the wonderful, happy news of Mitzi's arrival. I cried through that message too but they were tears of the joy I felt that beautiful Mitzi joined your family. I'm so happy for all of you.

  6. So much of the circle of life in your post - and it's touching, heart breaking, and inspirational all in the same message. Thank you for sharing TSK with all of us and blessings to you, Jim and Mitzi (and Daffy too!)!!

  7. I too had tears reading this and I am happy for you both and Daffy, God bless you all. I am glad you have this tiny girl; and I feel certain she will make her way deeply into your hearts too. xx

  8. Kathleen Lynch: Mitzi looks hopeful and open to joy. Seems Daffy is being kind to this little bit of curiosity and sweetness. Mitzi also has an "old soul" look to her. I know well no loved creature can be replaced, but a new love helps expand the heart. Cheers, all.

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  10. Such a sweet, poignant story. Thank you so very much for sharing Ingrid's message, and for enlarging your heart to include Mitzi. Hugs from all of us!

  11. Oh I am so very happy for all of you. You know what i went thru w Nike and then meeting Raphael. I am so glad. Let us know when Mitzi is on Twitter. Going to look now!!! Xoxo

  12. I read your post with a heavy heart, for you three and for TSK...but what a lift to then read about your precious new addition to the family. Like TSK and Daffy after him, Mitzi is so very lucky to have you as her new parents. I can tell from the Google photos that Miss Mitzi Moody is already feeling quite happy in her new home. Much love to all of you!

  13. OMP! Lovely post. TSK was called home and we will miss him forever. Mitzi is so cute and we feel TSK had a paw in saving her for you. You are family now. We welcome Mitzi with glee and paws all in. Hugs, Sadie

  14. Oh dear friends, this post makes my face and heart smile once again. I am so very happy for all of you. Mitzi it truly beautiful (those eyes will really get to you). My heart has been breaking for you ever since we heard about TSK, but now there are smiles once again. We'll always love and rewmember TKS because TSK was special also. I'm just so happy you have a new kitty now to help everyone smile again and even bring laughter into the house again..

  15. I love those photos of little Mitzi! She is so cute!! And that feeding station is genius!

    -Jessica (BSNP)

  16. Your words to Tsk were heartbreaking but absolutely beautiful . And then the Mitzi announcement was so fab! You so deserve some purring happiness in your lives to help heal your broken hearts. Welcome to adorable Mitzi. I cant wait to wish her happy #MitziMoodyMonday! xo

  17. Mitzi already looks like a happy cat at home and Daffy obviously likes her. I'm happy for all of you.

  18. Like most, I started reading with sadness about TSK but then I saw that beautiful face! Nice to meet you Mitzi! You have found a beautiful and loving home! Hugs n purrs from Angel SMOKEY & Tessie

  19. Many hearts are expanding with joy, hope,and love as they read the next chapter of the inspirational story of second chances at the Moodys. Wishing you many happy adventures with Mitzi. What a beauty! We'll never forget TSK.

  20. Welcome, Mitzi <3 Have a great life with your humans!

    RIP, TSK - we'll never forget you.

    Jan - #TribeOfMa

  21. Welcome Mitzi. We are sure that you will have a fantastic time in your new home.
    Dana whilst on holiday we finally got round to reading the Four Paws and 31 tales. It was wonderful to read the tale about TSK. RIP sweetie.
    Islay and staff.

  22. TSK was a very special kitty who will always be remembered. I do think he sent Mitzi to you to help ease your pain. I love that Mitzi and Daffy are already making friends!

  23. She is a bonnie wee lass and bringer of smiles xx

  24. Thank yoo TSK for sending Mitzi to your Mom, Dad & Daffy! Yoo knew they could love another kitteh without having that change the love they'll always feel for yoo! Yoo, Daffy & Mitzi are each so #Blessed to have such pawsome pawrents! *blows a kiss to #AngelTSK* MWAH! Luv yoo always & furever sweet boy!Luv yoo too Miss Pixie, MrP & DaffyDoodles! ((HUGS)) OxO

  25. I know that sweet TSK has sent this beautiful kitten to you. You've been in our thoughts, and we'll keep sending positive thoughts and wishes to you all.

  26. TSK certainly was a special member of your family, I loved that he and Daffy had became such good friends. I'm sure Mitzi will help ease the pain of his loss. She looks very sweet. {{hugs}}

  27. Marie (Angel CJ)May 23, 2017 at 1:55 PM

    Leaky eyes here. I'm so happy Mitzi has a wonderful home with your family!